Monday
Started off by me doing nothing. I called my father, sense it was his birthday. He is now 52 years old. I cant believe that he is that old. But I learned some good news while I was talking to him. he should have his patent in the next couple of week witch means he will be able to start max production. He should be able to get about 10,000 by the end of the year. witch would be good for him.
And it is official now to I am now a have reached the boyfriend stage in my relationship. I am so exited about it. I'm not just exited about having a girlfriend, but also to have a really good friend. That I know cares about me. I am also glad for I know that it will help my depression to. Just being able to talk to somebody helps with that. I know sense I am usually the one that everybody comes and talks to. I went to FHE also we were doing trivia games, I suck at trivia games. Special sense it is church trivia, somethings strange about that is I undoubtedly believe in everything that are church stands for. Witch is kinda funny because if you asked me any serious questions about it I most likely would not be able to answer it. I know I know what I am talking about, I just seem to have a selected memory or something. Because I only seem to remember what seems interesting to me. And that is just it the history of the church just isn't that interesting to me.
Tuesday
When I first got up this morning I went and donated plasma, Note: it is getting easier to control my heart rate I am able to lower it quicker now. I think that its because I am exercising much more now, but I also think that I pray for help with it more and more. Witch I think that It helps a lot. I started watching Starwars again. And during it I layed down for a nap but I forgot what time it was. I forgot I had to go pick Amber up Ops my bad so I was a little late. But its all good. when I got home I eat dinner witch we had tacos I love tacos.
Wednesday
Today I went to the planetarium, it was fun I haven't been there. But before we went down there we went to the post office. and after that we went to Walgreen's, Rid-Aid, and a pet store witch I cant remember the name of at this moment. When we got to the planetarium we got the tickets for the show The Ultimate Universe, witch was good. And it was kinda funny because the movie was old, because all the questions that were in it. have been answered by Nova a few months ago. But after we got the tickets we went to Barns and Nobel to look around. I always find it interesting to see the stuff that they have in there.
Note to self too I am now not at the boyfriend stage anymore. Witch in result of it I am now depressed again. But its really my own fault, I allowed myself to get attached to somebody. Its not my fault that I cat attached to them really easy. So it turns out that I really like somebody when they only sorta like me. I think that my problem is that I am to much of an affectionate person. I leave my self open to be hurt. And felled with disappointment, more then they do. And it doesn't help that every time that I go out with somebody It just makes it worse. Maybe its just my desire to feel wanted, or loved. Or that I know that somebody wants me around. I think that is what I really want. more then anything. I think that one of the main reasons why I feel depressed a lot of the time. Because I feel lonely and ignored. I really hope that it doesn't last for long. for last time I was really depressed it didn't turn out very well.
I went over to my grandma's and helped her for a little bit, doing things around the house for her. After that I went over to my dads. We watched a show called the Sentinel it was really good, and I spent the night there.
Thursday
The reason why I spent the night at my dads was because we got up early and went rabbit hunting. It was fun we saw 5 but only got three. Sneaky blighters got away, we rowed the ATV's for a while and then it was time to go. So we drove home and my dad dropped me off at my grandpa's house to eat dinner. Not everybody was there this year, normally there is about 40 of us. but this year there was only maybe 20 some people decided not to come. now that I am home I am ready for bed. Note I really was hesitating on if I was even going to go. Because I am still kinda depressed and I really just wanted to be a lone. I didn't want to answer any of there questions. and now I do kinda wish I didn't go. Like I was right they all asked questions, and I really don't want to talk to anybody. So I did what most people do in that situation they lie to make people stop talking to them. I know I shouldn't have done that. But I really wasn't in the mood to talk to anybody. So I am sorry everybody.
I found a quote today that I really liked, and it apply's to what I have been talking about this week. "To Love someone is Nothing, To be Loved by someone is Something, But to be Loved by the one that you Love is Everything.
I love this quote It reminds me of what I am working for.
Friday
Today this morning I went up to Bountiful to get some new ties. And let me tell you the drive is totally worth it. I went to the store for some rolls for dinner. And I also got my self some chocolate too. I have been looking at pitchers a lot on Pinterest a lot I think that I have become addicted to it. I been exercising a little bit today to. Latter Joseph came over and we were going to finish watching Starwars The Return of the Jedi. But it ended up him watching me play Assassins Creed for a few hours, sense he hasn't really seen anybody play the brotherhood one.
Saturday
Today when I got up I watched some game play for the new Starwars MMO it is looking pretty good right now. They are still in the beta stag I believe right now for it. I went and got Revelations today for Assassins creed, I have been playing that most of the day, its been relaxing.
