The Slow Dancer

 8/6/2011
Nothing really happened today, so I decided to share this with you because it is exactly how I Am. 

The Slow Dancer Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLD)

Steady, reliable, and cradling her tenderly. Take a deep breath, and let it out real easy...you are The Slow Dancer
Your focus is love, not sex, and for your age, you have average experience. But you’re a great, thoughtful guy, and your love life improves every year. There’s also a powerful elimination process working in your favor: most Playboy types get stuck raising unwanted kids before you even begin settling down. The women left over will be hot and yours. Your ideal woman is someone intimate, intelligent, and very supportive.
While you’re not exactly the life of the party, you do thrive in small groups of smart people. Your circle of friends is extra tight and it’s HIGHLY likely they’re just like you. You appreciate symmetry in relationships.

The restart.

 8/5/2011

   Today was slow, lets summarize, when I got up I played around on the computer for a wile. I went to Gamesstop to sell some stuff back to them and get a new game. and I have been playing that most of the day. I also am restarting on my project, because I realized that the pitcher that I was stitching was to small. So I made it 60% bigger, It should be good know, But know I have to restart sowing, or stitching all over again. witch ever you prefer to call it.

    Krysta, and Me also went to see Pirates today. I love that movie. And even though I have seen it twice. I till think it was better the second time. Stranger Tides is far better then the other Pirates I think, except the first one. But definitely better the the last two. I am not raging on them or anything. I still like the other two. Tomorrow. I will finish tracing the new pitcher, And restart again. Hopefully it is big enough that way I don't have to restart again. I really need to go on a walk tonight. because I have been slaking lately.

Prar to myself

 8/4/2011

       Today I went to F.Y.E. to sell my set of Battle Star Galactica and I bought some Disney movies.  I love Disney. When I got home I started sowing my project together. So I worked on it for about 4-5 hours today.  That's all I did today.

    Steven, Krysta, Britney, Joseph, Lauren, Brian, and I all watch The Lord of the Rings today. It was ok. I guess it would have been better if I was feeling better. but for some reason. I have felt really bad today. I mean during the movie I started crying. for no reason at all. I just feel really bad. I hope that I don't feel the same way tomorrow. But all in all I did enjoy myself, even though I was forcing myself to do it. I mean about half way throw the movie. I just wanted to leave. I almost just got up and walked out. You see I even thought to myself that nobody would notice if I did leave. "God please help me for I don't want a repeat of my past, "Wipe tear". "Please Help me and over coming my trials that I am dealing with right now." For I know your there, "Please just give me a sign that your listening. Just let me know that you care. or anybody care's to that matter." Amen.
   

   

Time to Start

  8/3/2011

   Today I went and mowed the lawn and finished making my bike lock. I also finished tracing the pattern. And know I can start sowing it. I might give it to them sooner then what I originally was planing depending on how long it takes me to finish it. I also tried to get the tires of my car, but some idiot at the store decided to use an air gun to put them on. Let me tell you you do not need an air gun to put a tire on, now I cant get them off. So my neighbor is going to bring tools home with him tomorrow to get them off. I will go sow a bit more while I watch a movie. and then i think i am going to go to bed.

Projecta

8/2/2011

    Today I went and got all the fabric that I am going to need for my project that I am doing. I am not going to tell you what it is. All I am going to say is its going to be a gift. I was going to give it at Christmas, but that might be to far away. Depending on how long it take me to make I might give it sooner. And I have been working on it all day. Well at least I thought, "He said to himself pondering over the contents of his mind."

   I went to the softball game today witch was fun when I got home I decided to eat sense like 10 am I will go play some games before I go to bed, Or I should go finish the out line so I can start sowing tomorrow. But I will go for a walk tonight and then go to bed around 12:00 tomorrow I will start sowing, and job searching again.

   

Bad Dreams

  8/1/2011

   Today I am so tired because, I had some nightmares last night. Its kinda funny you know, when your little you think of a nightmare as stuff like Clowns, or being chased. But when you get older they turn into something worse I think. for instance mine comprise of what I am most afraid of, and not allowing me to do anything to help. What is truly horrifying, is not what you dream about. But the worry. that it might come true, and you wont be able to do anything about it. No matter how hard you try, or what you do. It is always just lingering in the back of your mind, just sitting there, and waiting to strike. That is what truly frightens us.

   When I got up I went and mowed the lawn before it got to hot out side. It wasn't as long as it normally is, maybe next week it will be. I played around on the computer for a while. Then I decided to go and clean the kitchen, because I really should have done it last week. but I am such a great procrastinator, that I didn't do it till today. I am going to go eat something. then I will take a look at my car to see why it sleeks when I turn. I am hoping it is just a rock. because if it isn't and the brakes are still good. That means that the CV axles are going out on me. and I really don't have the money to replace them.

   Tonight I went to the stake FHE pool party, I thought it was fun. well at least I had a fun time for the most part. What did I do daring it, well I swam and swam, looked for people, eat some ice-cream, and swam some more. I was originally not going to swim. But Alex changed my mind. well honestly I really didn't swim that much I mostly just walked around the pool and in the pool. I hung around Lauren and Krista. Mostly, Near the end of the time that I was swimming. I really wasn't  focusing on what was going on that much. But more focused keeping an eye on  Krysta. Now don't get the wrong idea. I was doing it because I was noticing that she was having a hard time. So I just wanted to be close if something happened.  That's all some people would say that I am over reacting. and they would even say that there is no need to for that. But then again all the people that say that never have had drowning experience. Let me tell you its not fun. I am some what afraid of the water. Because when I was younger I almost did drowned. But that's a story for another time.

   I am very tired now that it is all over with. but I don't know what I am going to do know. I was thinking about watching a movie. But I don't know what one I would watch. I mean earlier I was looking throw my movies. and I didn't see any thing that looked good. And that's saying something, sense I have a lot of movies. Maybe ill scan them again, to see if anything looks interesting or not. I don't know, way do I have a hard time trying to figure out what to do. I may just go for a walk, or something. So I can think, I don't know way walks help me think but they do.

Sunday Sunday Sunday

7/31/2011

     Today was a normal Sunday got up eat breakfast. got ready for church. Went to church. Church was almost like normal, except today instead of separating for are classes it was combined.  I did something today in church that I haven't down in many a years. Can you guess what it is. No okay ill tell you. I passed the sacrament. I haven't done that sense i was 18 it was kinda weird. But I guess the more you do it the more you feel conferrable with it.

   After Church I decided to play some games for a will. before going over to Josephs and getting some chocolate from him. and I went and dropped some off at Lauren's, because she said she wanted some. after that I Came back home and Had some cobbler it was so good. and now I guess I am going to go watch a movie. Oh only if somebody wants to watch one with me.

But I will go for a walk after that and then I am unsure if I will go to bed early tonight or not. Because tomorrow Is kinda a Pool Party, but its not at the same time. I am still uncertain, if I even want to go swimming. or not. I mean I do, but I don't at the same time.  All will be decided tomorrow.