8/1/2011
Today I am so tired because, I had some nightmares last night. Its kinda funny you know, when your little you think of a nightmare as stuff like Clowns, or being chased. But when you get older they turn into something worse I think. for instance mine comprise of what I am most afraid of, and not allowing me to do anything to help. What is truly horrifying, is not what you dream about. But the worry. that it might come true, and you wont be able to do anything about it. No matter how hard you try, or what you do. It is always just lingering in the back of your mind, just sitting there, and waiting to strike. That is what truly frightens us.
When I got up I went and mowed the lawn before it got to hot out side. It wasn't as long as it normally is, maybe next week it will be. I played around on the computer for a while. Then I decided to go and clean the kitchen, because I really should have done it last week. but I am such a great procrastinator, that I didn't do it till today. I am going to go eat something. then I will take a look at my car to see why it sleeks when I turn. I am hoping it is just a rock. because if it isn't and the brakes are still good. That means that the CV axles are going out on me. and I really don't have the money to replace them.
Tonight I went to the stake FHE pool party, I thought it was fun. well at least I had a fun time for the most part. What did I do daring it, well I swam and swam, looked for people, eat some ice-cream, and swam some more. I was originally not going to swim. But Alex changed my mind. well honestly I really didn't swim that much I mostly just walked around the pool and in the pool. I hung around Lauren and Krista. Mostly, Near the end of the time that I was swimming. I really wasn't focusing on what was going on that much. But more focused keeping an eye on Krysta. Now don't get the wrong idea. I was doing it because I was noticing that she was having a hard time. So I just wanted to be close if something happened. That's all some people would say that I am over reacting. and they would even say that there is no need to for that. But then again all the people that say that never have had drowning experience. Let me tell you its not fun. I am some what afraid of the water. Because when I was younger I almost did drowned. But that's a story for another time.
I am very tired now that it is all over with. but I don't know what I am going to do know. I was thinking about watching a movie. But I don't know what one I would watch. I mean earlier I was looking throw my movies. and I didn't see any thing that looked good. And that's saying something, sense I have a lot of movies. Maybe ill scan them again, to see if anything looks interesting or not. I don't know, way do I have a hard time trying to figure out what to do. I may just go for a walk, or something. So I can think, I don't know way walks help me think but they do.
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