Monday
It started off with my grandfather coming over to pretty much tare all the shelving out of are bathroom. I haven't done much all day. I have been watching nova a lot of the time. I was trying to get hold of a friend all day to. But when I finally got a hold of them it mad me kinda depressed. I mean I have known her for about 6 years, I hate it when someone pretends to be your friend but they really are not. But what really hurts is when you love someone, but they don't love you back. I mean it is really hard for me to find someone when nobody seems to wanna even give me the opportunity to show them how much I care for them. But it even worse when I find that person that will allow me to show them, they never seem to care. After dating as many people I have you begin to wounder if there is something wrong with you sense nobody seems to want to be around you.
Anyways that night I went to FHE we were making Gingerbread Houses. I didn't do any, for about the first half hour I was there I was just siting in the chapel thinking/praying. It really felt good to talk to somebody I know will listen to me and actually care about what I am going though. But I went in to watch others make them. I know it is not good to be alone mainly right know. Because I am gating back to the point to were I am starting to get thoughts of suicide again. I wish people understand. The problem is there is nobody that knows what I am going through. I went over to a friends house afterwards to watch a movie.
Tuesday
I went and donated today. It went well no complications at all. I have been watching the Avatar shows the animated version. I have been doing that most of the day. but I had my appointment with my bishop today to. I am finally going to be mad an elder I am so happy for that sense I should have been mad one 4 and a half years ago about. But it is talking me longer to get control of some of my problems. And even though I still have a major problem with some of them. I am making great progress with it. I am so happy about it. Yeah It has only taken me 10 years to get control of it. For those of you that had not quit an addiction to something before. It is so hard to quit it. and even harder when your doing it cold turkey. Let me tell you the longer you go the more and more you think about it. There are times where that is all that is on my mind.
Wednesday
Before I start off telling you about my day I wanted to share with you a music video. Its called The Christmas Rush, and I love this song for two reasons. One its from Mike Tompkins he is a great singer/artist. For those of you that don't know who he is I seriously recommend that you go check him out. And reason Two for me liking this song is that it reminds us the Christmas is not about giving gifts.
Thursday
Lets see today I finally was able to take out the trash I have kept forgetting to do it for a while know sense I was supposed to do it on Monday. Well I guess it doesn't really matter when I do it just as long as I do it, right. I also finally found are punching bag I have been looking for it for months. I originally thought that my sister took it with her to Washington, but I found it today in. I am so happy about it. Now I can get bloody knuckles all over again. I went over to Joseph's house to help him set up his tree. After we did that I went to Institute with him, I found it kinda fun sense I have never been before. But on the way out of his driveway he ran into my car lol. Its ok though because it really didn't do that much damage all I have to do is bend the door back out with a hammer. And put the tire back on, sense I was parked up against the curb when he hit me it pushed the tire off the rime so I get to put it back on now. When we got back we ended up watching a movie. And one of jo's friends came over to watch it with us. What a day I say, but it was still fun.
Friday
I didn't really do anything important enough today to report it.
Saturday
I fixed the tire to the car, just as I thought I just had to pump it up. It didn't have a leak in it. That is good, and as far as I can tell nothing is wrong with it. Time will tell on if there is or isn't though. I went to go see Rise of Planet of the Apes, its a good show. But I still think the older Planet of the Apes are better.
