A good Day

 7/8/2011

   Today started off by getting up at 10:00 i took a shower, and went to the bank, afterward i went over to the gas station to fill up for the drive ahead later that day. at about noon i got on the computer to see if anybody said or sent me something on Facebook. you know how i like it when people talk to me. due to that i am a very social, or should i say sensitive person.

After i had found nothing :( i decided that i would go and eat something, so i went and looked and looked in the kitchen for some food. After a few minuets i found a mini pizza. and during the process of eating that i was watching videos of the NSL witch was interesting.

At 3:09 i left to go pick Krysta up for are hike that we had Planed. on the way up to Big cotton wood we had a good chat about stuff. that i don't remember dam. But if you asked me a question i believe that i could probably answer it. and for some reason even though i know were i was going i managed to get turned around, so we had to back track a little bit witch was okay by my book.

The hike it self was very good we had fun, well i believe we had fun, i hope she did. it kinda sucks that we couldn't go all the way to the falls because the water run of was so much that the pathway was out.

Out on the way to the to get some food. we had another really good chat that i felt kinda bad about some of the information that i said i probably i shouldn't have said, i feel like it was to much. i always feel really bad when discussing my past that's why i don't like doing it even though it is necessary. but anyway cant take back the past so there is nothing you should worry about because the past is the past and shouldn't be bothered by you or anyone else in the future for it cannot be changed.

Well we eat and had for good conversation. i drove her home and said goodnight. but on the way home i couldn't help shake the feeling like i said or did something wrong. and as i am siting here typing this out i am getting that same feeling. but what can you do. i know why i am getting that feeling but there is nothing i can do about it right now without screwing everything up. and putting myself back in depredation. so all i can do is sit here and hope, and pray that everything is going to work out.

When i got home i downloaded all the photos that i took, and uploaded them to the computer. I thanked Krysta for the fun evening, that is about the only thing i can do. without crying. for i cam an emotional person. and what women would want to be with somebody that is more emotional then they are. i think that i am going to go for a walk and watch a movie, why do i always wanna cry when talking about relationships. Hope that i don't show any emotion on Sunday, for it is not very good for a guy to so emotion. But i can't help it ill pray and pray that everything will be ok for i am not. i wish i had somebody to talk to about this stuff.