Belly Skating

Today I finished the campaign on Gears of War. It is such a great game. I love the story line. It makes me cry. after that I played around on the computer for a while, and watched the new episode of NCIS. "It was really good."

  After that Me, Krysta, Lauren, and Cris all went Ice skating today. I haven gone sense I was a teacher. I am a little bit better. I had lots of fun, even though I kinda feel bad because I feel like I was the bummer of the party.
We went back to Lauren's house after wards for Hot Chocolate and Popcrone, yum it was good. we played some games. And I think we were all tired because it seemed like everything was funny.

  But all in all I had a good night, and day. and I am going to go to bed in a little bit now. but first I am going to play around on the computer again. :)

A Funderly Shoot'em Root'em day

Today I got up at 7 because I couldn't sleep anymore.  I have to much to think about today. I revived a letter from the I.R.S. today. and I am most likely going to have to pay something.  I really hate taxes. I am prying that I don't because I don't have any money to pay it. So pray for me Please. I really need the help.

 I went on a date today with Krysta. Today we went shooting. It was fun. But we probably wont do that again, well for a long time anyways.  I like to go shooting. But I don't go as much as I used to. I might go more in the future, but right now I have better stuff to feel my time. After that we came back and eat lunch, we had sandwiches. I love sandwiches haven't had one in a while.

    I am still in the proses of finishing the campaign on Gears I like how the story, What makes a good game is when the story is writing so well then you feel for the characters. I find it good when you start crying during the game. It means that you are able to feel what is going on. in a matter of speaking.

   After a while I helped my uncle move are new couch into the house. and then I went over to Josephs to watch a movie. it was fun. I don't remember the name of the movie. All I know is that it was an old spy movie from like the 60's or so. But now that I am home I am really tired. I don't think I am going to watch NCIS tonight. I might just go to bed and try and catch up on sleep from last night. That I was lacking for reasons I don't know I couldn't sleep.

  Honestly I think the reason for me not being able to sleep last night was, Me being so nerviness about today.

Monday Contanables

 I found this today and thought that you guys might like to read this.

Fun Film Facts and numbers about The Lord of the Rings trilogy: Over 6 million feet of film shot during production; 48,000 swords, axes, shields, and makeup prosthetics; 20,602 background actors cast; 19,000 costumes made by the wardrobe department; 10,000 crowd participants at New Zealand cricket game who made orc army grunts; 2,400 behind-the-scenes crew members at height of production; 1,600 pairs or prosthetic hobbit feet created; 250 horses used in one scene; 180 computer special-effects artists employed; 114 total speaking roles; 100 real locations in New Zealand used for backdrops; 50 tailors, cobblers, designers and others in wardrobe department; 30 actors trained to speak fictional dialects and languages; 7 total years of development for all three movies.

   Check out the new project I found myself with this week.

   My job is to tear them up into small enough peaces that I can throw them in the trash can.It is more tireing then what you think. for instance what you see in the pitcher took me an hour and a half, because I don't have all the tools I need. But my mother is bringing a saw home with her so it will so along much faster after that. And I am really tired right now I have done all of that with nothing but a hammer and a knife.


 Well That is what I have been doing most of the day today. and I am almost finish with it. should finish it tomorrow. Or maybe not I am going to go donate tomorrow and really cant do any hard work after that. Now that it is almost seven I am going to take the trash out and head over to FHE. I almost forgot. I mowed the lawn when I got up this morning too.  

 FHE was fun we played Chair Soccer it was fun. I think that my friends were hinting to me tonight that I need to pay attention to detail more. I mean I know I pay attention to detail more then most people do. I just think its a different type of detail. Well I mean I notice things that a lot of people don't, but that mostly contains to emotions. not looks. I am trying to pay attention more to them. But sometimes it hard. For those of you that don't know I am slightly A.D.D. or another words I have Attention Deficit Disorder. Or another words, I have a hard time focusing on some things. I know I don't have it bad, because I can still focus it just takes more effort.

  Anyway after that some friends and I all went over to another friends house and watched Phantom of the Oprah. I love that show, I think its because I grow up with my mother listening to it all the time.   But I had fun I always do.  I went over to the Midnight release of Gears 3 on my way over but I don't think I am going to play tonight. I have to much to do tomorrow. And plus I am really tired, didn't sleep very good last night. I am hope that wont be the case tonight. But I am going to go to bed after I finish writing this. 

P.S. I my seem like I am making some of this stuff up, but so you know everything I post on here. Is 100% True. I am a very honest person. and I really try my hardest not to lie to people.  

Standerd thinking

   I have never been good at playing games that make you have to think a lot. Im not talking about games that have a lot of things going on. I  mean puzzle games. I have never been good at puzzles, but I like doing them because I like having to think a lot. I was playing Portal today, witch is a very fun game but It has made me think very much. For intense it took me 4 hours to finish what I have seen people do in 2 hours or less.

   But one thing came came from it, that I realized I love music from games. I love the song at the end of the first game If you have never heard it before here you go.

   Today I had a good day. Its kinda funny because for those of you that know me very well. Would know that I never cared about church, infarct hated going. That's one of the reasons why I was in active for about four years. Its one of the reasons, I have others, but that is something I am not going to give to the public. I mean Not even my family knows why. Anyways. I find it strange, because now I love going. I mean I enjoy it. witch is weird to me.

   I have been thinking a lot bout what type of training I want to do, when I go back and talk to VRC and I think I really want to do Carpentry work. but If they will allow me to I need to get started on my schooling because I need to do at least 4 years. Have you ever needed to do something. And know you needed to do something, but have no Idea how to do it.I am having that delema right now. I have something I need to do. but don't know when to do it. Because its all about timing, And if you do it at the wrong time. Three things could happen. One everything goes just fine, and it all work out. Even though it might not go according to plan. Two nothing happen, And everything stays the same as they were before. Or Three the worst kind, Everything goes as honorably wrong. Your plane contently backfires, and everything just falls apart. This is what scars me. For most people it dose. It worries all of us. I mean how want everything they have work for for a long time just end all of a sudden. Nobody dose. So something as time witch is one of the biggest players in are life. and yet the smallest thing.

  After I eat dinner, I just been watching gaming music, and videos, and music videos. Some of the stuff I have found have been very interesting. Its cool some of the stuff people come up with.

Self Control

 Today I went up to donate today. And I guess I did. I almost wasn't able to, but I was good in the end. Its amazing how much you can change your body when you convince yourself there is nothing wrong with you. I mean the first time I was tested my heart rate was 115 but then when I was siting there. I just keep telling myself that there was nothing wrong, and that I had a low rate. and surprisingly when I was tested again my heart rate went all the way down to 84 now you cant tell me that that's just amazing.

  I went to F.Y.E. today, because I had a gift card there that I haven't used yet so I got some movies. Wall-E, The Tree Musketeers, and Narnia the first and third one because I already had the second one. I was going to tare are couch apart. We are throwing it away, Its to old and cruddy. So my job is to tare, or chop it apart and throw it away. But my mother doesn't want me to do it today, so I am going to do it on Monday.

  I have Priesthood meting Sunday morning. I don't know if I want to go. Its at 7AM that is way to early for me I know I should go I just don't want to get up that early. anyways I probably wont even be able to get up anyway. I haven't gotten up that early sense High School. I know I need to do better. But by my point of view for somebody that hasn't been to church sense he turned 18 for me I believe that I am doing very well. I am taking it one step at a time. 

Today needs to end.

Today has been one of those days that you wish was just over. I have had a headache all day. and for I am kinda feeling depressed to. I went to go and try and donate today. But they wouldn't let me, because my heart rate is to high again. I am just so stressed. I mean my resting heart rate is 80 so why is it always so high when I go in there. I really think its because I am stressed, and nerves. But its strange because I am not afraid of needles or anything.   It might have something to do with that I have tachycardia.  Or it might be because I have a natural high heart rate.

  I believe that tomorrow will go better in that sense anyway. It has been raining today. so I have  spent some time just listing to it. I went to F.Y.E. today and sold some of my movies. and I got some CD's from Josh Groban and Bruno Mars I like both of there music a lot and one of my favorite songs from Josh is Awake, and for Bruno I would say Grande would be my favorite one. I wasn't able to find a video for Joshes so so I have another video I would like to share with you of is that I like, It called "Hidden Away"

             And for Bruno's song I did find the one I wanted and here it is.

   This song has a lot of meaning for me and every time I hear it I can't but help of thinking of my past. :(

 Anyway I am so glade that it is raining right now. it just means that it is cool outside and I like cool weather, it has been hot the last while and now its changing into fall. I love the fall weather o yes I do. My birthday is next month to I am so conflicted on it. I know that I should be happy about it. and want to celebrate it. But honestly I really don't care to me its just another day. I don't know why I never cared much about my birthday, ever.  I know I shouldn't be that way I really do try and care, I need to care. For if I don't I know that I will have a repeat of my past. And I never, I say NEVER want to go throw that again.

  Anyway I have been so bored today. I am trying to diced on what type of job training I want to do. I was thinking about doing something in Carpentry or heavy machinery, or maybe I wouldn't mind, in fact I would enjoy doing something with park work. like a forest worker.that sort of thing. but I am still un decided I don't know witch one I want to do. But I am leaning more with Carpentry, and Forest worker then anything else.

 I did go on my bike ride last night it was good. for the last half of it my heart rate was at about 160 so that is good.

Addictions

Today the power went out at my house.for a few hours. Mainly because my grandfather was over here playing with the wires and over loaded the backers. That was the high light of my day. I didn't get around to going running this morning, because I forgot to. and when I finally remembered to it was to hot out side. I finally finished downloading the client today. And know I am not starting to get the feeling that it wasn't a good idea to do it in the first place. Last time I was started playing WoW it became a huge addiction for me. So I will see how it goes this time, if it starts to look as if it is going to head that way again I will just cut it off.

   Why is it no matter how much I eat and or when I eat I am always hunger like an hour later. It really isn't a good thing. Well back to addictions I find that if you like something so much that you do it all the time, or eat it all the time. Regarding that it is healthy for you or not. It is not a good thing. any addiction can be bad, no matter what or how much you have.  I did do my laundry today though I have been waiting to do it all week.

   I cam across a quote today that I think everybody should memorize, it goes something like this. "Live your life with somebody that makes you happy, not somebody that you have to impress."

  Just some words that should have a bigger meaning in the world today. but has no affect on it.

Thinking is Trouble

Today I mowed the lawn when I got up. and then took the car over to see if it would pass emissions, it did. But the brakes will need to be replaced before next year.  Have been waiting for this download to finish all day long but most likely it wont finish till tomorrow. I hope I start feeling better tomorrow.

 Lately I have been filling lonely. And I hate it, it is not a good thing for when I begin feeling this way I tend to do things I wouldn't have normally. And its not like its because I am feeling depressed. Its that I have been thinking to much. I find I do that a lot. And it has been nothing but trouble for me. Haven't done anything else today. Just been watching movies, and reading something that I should have finished a long time ago.

  I decided to play some halo for a while surprisingly.  Playing games doesn't exit me like it used to. I don't know why maybe its just because I am getting older. Or it could be I am just finding other stuff to occupy my time with that is more interesting to me. What ever the case is I only spend like an hour or two a day now playing. Instead of like 6 or so.

  I didn't go running last night because my knee was killing me. I mean it hurt to just stand up. So I don't think that running would have helped any, but it is starting to feel better tonight. I also wont be able to start my project till next month witch is kinda a bummer to me. I also am drinking hot chocolate right now, Yum it is so good. I love hot chocolate.  I hope that we will be able to hook the washing machine back up before Sunday. Or I will not have any church clothes. Okay I will have clothes but not the ones I want to ware. I have the all black one. And if that is the case I will have to call Joseph, because I will not be able to do the sacrament. You have to have a white shirt to pass and administrate it, so I believe you have to have on to set it up to. But I am not 100% on that. Will will come to that bride though after the the next bend. 

Help Always Comes to Those who ask for it.

I was going to mow the lawn today when I got up but I decided to do that tomorrow. Mainly because I wanted to see if I could donate today. And I was able to I guess prayers do come true. Just when you need them the most. Thanks God. for looking out for me. I know you are the one person I can always count on. :) Well I will do it tomorrow then.

  I finally talked to my father today. The last time I talked to him was on fathers day. But it was good to talk to him. I went to Jo-Ann's today and I found the pattern I want to do for my next project. Its going to be good. At least this one shouldn't take me as long as the last one did.

   I haven't done much besides that, I just have been playing some games, while I am waiting for this client to download. it is taking for ever. but I guess ill what, not by choice though. and I guess I have been looking up jobs to.  Now let me leave you with a Song that I really like. that I ran across the other day.

Pains & Tennis

Yesterday I wen to church, went to a fireside afterwards. it was a good one Elder Oaks was speaking. I liked is talk. after that was over I went over to a friends house well lots of other friends and had some scons. they were good. and I am glad that I went, because there were a lot of people there that I haven't seen in a while.

  Today I went over to GameStop to make sure that my copy of Gears was fully paid off. I also didn't sleep very good last night. For some reason I have been having stumic cramps all night. and I have had them all morning too. But a good thing is that they are starting to go away. I have also been watching the Us Open today. Watching the game all I have to say is what a great game. Like the one on Saturday this game has been so close the entire time.

  Even though it has been close. Both of them haven't been playing at there best . They have been having so many problems, to many faults from both of them. And there serving hasn't been that good. But all in all it was a good game.

   After I that was over I went to FHE, it was fun we played softball, volleyball, frisby, and soccer. Well they did I just watched, because I find that more fun really. After that A few of my friends, and myself all went over to a friends house and watched G.I.Joe it was good I really like that move. Even though I cant but help find all the flaws in it. I mean for once I would like them to make a movie that is really listic without all the hollywood theatricals. but thats just me.

 Now that I am home again. I am going to go exercise, and then go to bed. Yah for sleep. I just hope that I will be able to sleep better tonight then I did last night.